Prayers

bad new. keep my family in your prayers.

Daddy's Girl

what IS it about when my mom tries to pry into my personal life that makes me put my guard up?!? that makes me shut the doors and say "no."

last night i went to a movie where there was two boys present. not unnormal, but OF COURSE my mom had to associate it with romance.

maybe it was the way she brought it up. it instantly annoyed me. i just dont really feel like i can confide in her like i can with my father. its always been obvious that im just a daddy's girl. and you can see my mother's jealousy.

i love my mom very much, but me and her are just two completely different people.

more on this topic later.

stay fresh!

A Nice Way To Die?

have you ever heard of Schlitterbahn? it means water way/road in German. its the best waterpark in the world, really. there have even been polls and tv shows that say so.

well me and some friends were on our way down there, when this conversation on drownin comes on the radio.

random, yes. boring, NO.

there had been this email to the DJ about this man's expeirence with drowning. it was very disturbing, and let me tell you why:
after he sucked in some water, he felt this overwhelming calm, even euphoria. he notice how pretty the lights where, dancing in the water. he ENJOYED drowning. there were many other emails and calls confirming the same.

this startled me.

maybe drowning isnt a bad way to die?

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you know....its crazy how much it helps when someone understands what youre going through. its like a burden just dissapeared, and there is this free feeling in your chest. its marvelous♥

anyhoo,im currently working on painting my parking lot. then im writing a gothic for school. when im done, i will post it up here :) sound good???

my parking lot is going to be gold&purple splattered on top of gray. its hot as Mumbai out there. buttt its whatever :) glad to be getting this done.
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so my cousin decided to get up and move out of her house, where she lives with mmy grandma. i must say im kind of jealous. i long to be on my own, running my own life....
but thats beside the point.
this leaves my poor, old, widowed grandmother all my herself. in desperation&lonliness, she told my cousin not to move.
why?
because, aparantly my cousin will get raped or the girl she's rooming with is going to turn lesbian and go after my cousin.

its amazing what people will do not to be alone. i think thats what humans fear most in this world.

question of the day!

do i want to leave my church???

well, yes i do. i have another church id like to go to.but daddy wont let me :( and i sing on praise band at said church. its kind of screwed up. Temple's youth is so unified, so God centered. its beautiful.Celebrations.......different story.

im not mad with where im at, dont get me wrong.

i just like Temple best. they are my family.

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who am i talking to right now?

i am currently not talking to anyone. me and clayton mclaurin=over.

my crush? lets see......................can you keep a secret?

so can i ;)

although....clayton pricket is one cute kid.

clayton is a good name.

        

I've Got It All

band of the day-pearl jam♥


did you have a job at age fifteen?? try this, did you RUN one at age fifteen?? hello, my name is Nicole, i'm fifteen and i run my own photography business. as the school year approaches, my senior pictures are going off the charts!! check it out-http://www.facebook.com/pages/Fort-Worth-TX/Creative-Genius-Photography-and-Movies-by-Ms-Nicole-Rita-Sharp/111933585508985?ref=ts&__a=7
yeah man. hard core. and i'm running this stuff hardcore.

i love my job♥

Things That Make Me Mad :)

you know...i hate cowards. HATE them. i mean, there's a time when you need to grow up.
i hate getting on my Formspring &&& seeing that someone is too immature to ask something to my face. are you THAT scared of me?? i couldnt even hurt a flyy!!
thankk God im listening to Muse right now. good music makes me happy♥
anyways, when there is something important, there are more private, confidential, and appropriatte places to go. dont abuse Formspring.
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went to Open House today. it had rained, so the power went out at my school. just because of rain. thats how state of the art my school is....so i have no schedule, no locker/combination. haha monday will be fun!! so what happens when you stuff alot of people into a caffeteria without A/C? nothing.......they all go outside :) all in all, tonight was fun :)
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is it weird that im fifteen, and this guy who's a sohpomore in college is going after me??? how about two?? this year is going to be interesting for sure :)

Running Around In Circles

sooo school starts monday for me. its a cycle that the average American goes through-school, summer, school. its one that i find comfort in. im finally a sophomore now.....things are crazy. i guess ill have to tell you how so, huh?

well i made my varsity volleyball team this year, sporting lucky number 13 on my jersey :)

and my love life??? it will keep you on your toes!!!

to see who i am follow me on facebook-http://www.facebook.com/Nicolawtay

and formspring-http://www.formspring.me/nicolawtay

but i will be posting stuff up here :)

get readdyyy for whatever's on my mind, drama, and action. i dont lead a normal life :)