truth is, i dont truly spend any time on this earth. my whole conscious being is off in some made up world, where people can lounge all day in the sun, relaxing on golden clouds. my physical body is the only thing that holds me on this earth. my memories are divided into two sections: Reality and What I Wish Was Reality. if i ever sit still, thats because my nose is in a book, or my mind has wandered off to some mystical place.
do rainy days inspire you to be something mysterious? to light a candle, curl up in a dark corner, and read by its light?
it seems like time bends just for me. everything always works out just fine. To Be Honest, ive never truly worried once-not once!-in my life. it seems that everything always moving at a sleepy pace when times are good, but awakes at a start and sprints for its life whenever things are not well. its like i see everything out of body-like looking at a garden. but not only can i see the surface of the garden, i see straight through to the roots. i see how everything is connected. intertwined. i see the thoughts of others, the reactions, the situations....i see the puzzle come together. its a wonderful masterpiece.i learn everyday; i become wiser. i see things for the facts first, then deliberate over how i should interpret them. i dont want to grow into a bad person; i dont wanna waste my time nor others. i just want to thrive, and thrive by His means. I want to bring Him glory and i want to discover truth.
who will i be when i grow up?
i dont know. but i have a clue. have fun figuring out my mystery.
what do i desire most of anything in this world? i desire to live my life without having to ask permission to. i want school (all of school) to be over with...i want to be able to make my own choices. i want to make mistakes. i want to learn from them. im the type of person who HATES reading instructions because i much rather prefer the personal discovery of figure something out. because anytime you learn about something, you learn just a little more about yourself. i want to be independent. i NEVER want to give ANYONE enough power to hurt me.
but how can i if i want to love? there must be trust...but trust from me comes slow and after alot of thought. i am a fortress; only allies are allowed in.
i have alot of confidence. i am not cocky, arrogant, conceited....i just believe in myself.
I will never quit. I will always go down fighting. I will earn my victories and my losses. Just try and stop me. because i am one determined little sucker.
i dont like splenda. to me, i would prefer the real deal (sugar) . not some knock off.
the only One who can break me is God. people have lost their power over me. there words do not hurt. they only reveal. the only way a human being can hurt me is if they are one of those i care about and i see them hurt. i cant stand seeing others pain.
i am not cold or indifferent. i care and love everyone, and i am very accepting. i truly dont care what people think of me. but i care the world and more about others. people are my life. i do as much as i can for them. if i can make someone's life better, then im there. even after everything screams that you are the last person on earth i should give a rat's buttox about, i will always and loyally be there. in half a heartbeat. i will never give up on you. because giving up on you would mean giving up on me.
i would like to live a life without regrets. but that will never happen. for as long as there are choices, for as long as i am human, for as long as there are options, there will be regret.
if youre looking for something, its not me. i will not complete you nor will i satiate you. But my God can.
Know your passions, know your heart. and make it to that it is obvious what those are. others should know where your passions lie. if they dont, then you are ashamed of your passions. plain and simple.
i want to make other people wish they were like me. i want to be the type of role model that parents approve of.
how can you know you believe in the Bible, and clame it to be true if you've never read it??? how can you base your life on the rules you've never read??
why not be different? why not prove something to you? why not see things a different way and be impractical?? i prefer my room messy. it seems like me. i want to stay true to myself, and i am not clean.
i will guard my heart with all ive got.if all else fails, that will be the one promise i will keep. they day i lose that is the day i lose myself. thats when you know i am gone. i came into the world with one thing, and that is the thing that i will give to the one my Lord has chosen to be my husband. my companion for life.
there is no one who i envy more than children. i wish for an untainted heart again, and for innocence. i wish to see the good in the world. i wish to be the good in the world. i wish to be forever a child.
walt disney is my hero.
i want to conquer myself. i want to respect what i see in the mirror, everytime i look at it. i want to stop comparing myself to other people, and just compare myself to the Perfect One. because i will never be perfect, thus i will never stop getting better. i hold infinity in my hands, and that is the infinitly impossible task of being truly Christ-like.
and that is only the beginning of Nicole Rita Sharp. more to come soon.
